Watching Big Brother has been hilarious. They're so dysfunctional it's untrue. I thought I was self obsessed but these nutters take the biscuit. Houemate Craig the Cunt has definitely got issues. He started saying he wanted to destroy people's lives and has ended up in Day 3 in tears because people weren't paying him enough attention - pussy.
People go on these shows, not for the experience, but for exposure and to feel validated and wanted by some parts of he public, to feel like a celebrity and to feel superior to others as they have notoriety. The mix of people in the show this year has caused arguments straight away and I have to say it's instantly watchable. They are all clamouring for camera time and their desperation for attention is cringeworthy. We all like getting attention, I do and sometimes go out of my way to seek it. In work I chat to everyone but I have noticed that when people ask what I did at the weekend, I answer but rarely ask them what they did. I guess this is selfish in a way as I really don't have an interest in what they have done unless of course, there's a bit of scandalous gossip.
I sometimes feel like a should be a Gemini as I think I may have a bit of a split personality, there's the public person who teaches dance and is outspoken and cheeky and bitchy and sociable, then there's the other part of me who spent my holiday Monday reading a book, snoozing and watching some DVDs and didn't answer a text message sent by Cameron and I couldn't have been more content. As it is, I'm an Aries and the outgoing side of me is far stronger than the quiet side but I need to have that to maintain some sort of balance and privacy.
I write things in this blog and although it feels that I'm documenting a part of my life the majority of it is private and there are some things and some moments that I wouldn't dream of sharing with others but I can also share the most personal intimacies ever. Writing this blog is cathartic and healthy for me and I guess it's something to look back on and remember good, bad and strange times. Kind of like Big Brother on a less prying scale and I'm Big Brother so I call the shots!
Monday, May 30, 2005
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2 comments:
What cheek!! Moaning that noone ever calls or texts in a previous blog, and doesn't bother to reply when he does get them!! Just as well I love you, and expect this sort of behavior.........
cam, xcx
Sorry sister, I was so chilled out I dozed off and the forgot until I was blogging. I'm normally good at replying aswell!
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